The next test, and the next, and the next. . .

Just because we have surrendered (steps 1, 2 and 3) anything we can get our hands on doesn't mean that we are free from our obsession. We become complacent about surrender and the obsession comes back, a new test, the next test. It will probably present itself in a new and different way but it will come back. The feeling of unease will come back and we either reach for our drug or we surrender. We thought we were free but out of the blue we found a resentment.

At first we never realized that a resentment may have been more of the problem than lusting. In reality lust is just the symptom of the interior death that we experience. We have to learn to take the actions of love, choosing what is best for another for their sake, to heal ourselves. This involves ever growing layers of surrender, it is like peeling an onion.

God grant me the serenity. . . .

Under the Mercy,
MS